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I was in this show at school and I met this really cool chick. Now, my experience with girls has been a positive one overall – but it’s hard to find my “type”. I’m not talking about “I like skater chicks” or “I only date preppy girls”. It’s not what social “class” they’re in – it’s all about personality. I am of a rare breed- I am the kind of person that simply does not take things seriously and I’m totally confident with myself. I don’t worry that my hair looks stupid sometimes. I wave and talk to people that I don’t know. I dance and sing in my car with a million people watching. During class, if I raise my hand and answer a question incorrectly, am I embarressed when a few people start laughing at my ridiculous answer?! NO! I loudly pronouce “Boy, do I feel stupid or what?! What was I thinking with that one?” I simply do not care what you think of what I do. It’s such a fun way to be!
Anyway, back to the story. I meet this chick(Let’s call her, um.. how about Holly) and we become friends. She seems really cool. We start talking online and we have some of the best conversations that I’ve ever had. Funny, flirty, cute, light conversations that everyone loves – but with Holly it was different. I would playfully make fun of her and she would always have a snappy little comeback for me. I’m not trying to offend any ladies out there, but for the most part, girls tend to keep to themselves about that kind of stuff. They generally don’t make fun of guys in that flirty, playful way. In my experience, my girlfriend has almost always ended up acting like “I don’t know, what do you want to do?” Not because they couldn’t think of anything, but that they feel like they should’ve have too much input into the overall opinion of “us”. I want a girl to have an opinion – not to be really pushy/stubborn/unreasonable about it, but to at least have one (or many). Look, I’m a comedian, and I absolutely love telling jokes and making people smile. I do this all the time when I’m with a girlfriend of mine. I really don’t know what it is that makes some people think that they don’t matter in a relationship. I know it’s not something I’m doing – I mean, I’m always encouraging my girlfriend(when I have one) to say what is on her mind. Anyway, I’m getting off the subject again.
So this girl is really great. She’s funny, quick witted, flirty, and she just has this really cool vibe to her – it’s great. So I really wanna go out with her sometime, right? Yeah… Holly started dating someone a few days before and I got close. We *really* like each other but all that she has told me is that she’s confused and stuck in the middle. Her boyfriend doesn’t know about me – and he’s not going to find out. She’s not really cheating on him because she and I haven’t gotten together at all. It seems that she has left we waiting in the wings for when she’s decided to be done with her current boyfriend.
Well I’m tired of that. It’s been over a month now and I’m giving up. I’m not waiting anymore. I’m not going to feel bad when I start to develop feelings for other girls. I sent her a long email about a week ago and I don’t think she’s gotten it yet. Or she has and she doesn’t know what to say to me. I guess we’ll see. Wish me luck! Have any suggestions/questions? Email me.
Listening to: Incubus – Drive